Yesterday I literally took to my bed and slept all day only waking to deal with the effects of the Norovirus stomach virus. In between my deep slumber as I laid there I did ask that question of “why me Lord”? Why have I been so sick? What is causing these virus’s to find me? I was never awake long enough to answer those questions.
But this morning as I was moving about and working on getting my strength back, I kept hearing over and over again, “it is not the why but what are you learning through all of this?”
For one, I am learning not giving in to self-pity. Yes, it has been a long winter of illness, no sooner do I recuperate from one illness another pops up. I am exhausted and worn down. But even with how terrible I feel, I know there are others who experience a lot worse through their own illness’. I am exchanging my self-pity to praying for those who are in chronic pain, who are weakened by life threatening illnesses and for those who have an unnamed illness, like my husband.
Another lesson I learned is to be thankful for my good health and not to dwell on the illness’ that plagued me for the past few months. I am 12 yrs cancer free, my diabetes is under control and what I thought was a heart attack was a wake up call for better heart health.
I can take this past winter with all the illness and continue to feel sorry for myself, or I can take the illness’ that laid me low and tried to keep me down or I can use this time in my life to pick myself up. I choose to pick myself up by reaching for the hand of Jesus.
As I sit here still worn down from this latest storm in my life, I am being carried over the crashing waves of nausea and aches and pains. I can feel a new type of strength building up deep within me. It is the strength that only comes from Jesus. The type of strength that carries us through our illness’ and as we face difficult situations.
Trials and illness’ will come for we live in a fallen world. Our patience will be tried as strive to overcome all the obstacles that life may throw our away. We all have a choice. We have a choice to give in to them and we have a choice to rise above them. To give in is to turn away from God. To rise above our difficulties is to turn toward God and walk with His Son, Jesus.
Which do you choose?